Aw, thanks Francesca and Natalie for your kind words. *hugs*
I thought I was ok about the eval situation on Sunday, but it really affected me at work on Monday. I ended up telling my 2nd line supervisor that, while I signed the eval, I wasn’t happy with it. And I started crying while talking to him. (Ugh, I hate it when I do that!) I ended up having a “heart-to-heart” with my supervisor. What she’d wanted was for me rewrite my input to support the “outstanding.” I’d thought her response had meant she didn’t think I’d deserved it.
So, I rewrote the eval and everyone signed off on it. But now I’m worried because: 1) it’s like I got the good report because I “threw a hissy fit,” even though I know both supervisors think I’ve done a great job; and 2) now I’m afraid my new boss is going to think that’s my normal output.
See how my mind plays games with me? I’m my own worst enemy.